tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4427538608110635294.post2444751343134061907..comments2023-08-09T03:21:13.354-05:00Comments on Letters from Gehenna: The World on a Slant: Who Do You Want To Be Today?Dw3t-Hthrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11584245136407694660noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4427538608110635294.post-53684603817695176442007-07-28T01:16:00.000-05:002007-07-28T01:16:00.000-05:00It's interesting, the way I fall back on books, so...It's interesting, the way I fall back on books, sometimes. The ancients I'm reading about did it too -- they had this belief that the answers were written down somewhere, if they could only find the piece of paper, perhaps the sand had drifted over the stone some divine finger had inscribed upon.<BR/><BR/>And I want to go forward, but I also want to have the foundations built; going out without my footings in order leaves me unstable and terrified, uncertain of the state of the world.<BR/><BR/>It puts me into an unstable orbit, testing an idea, finding out how it flies on its own, and then dipping back into the books, into the texts, looking for something to confirm what I've found, looking for something to suggest the next refinement. As a compromise, it has its eccentricities and epicycles. But at least it moves, in a wobbly kind of way.Dw3t-Hthrhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11584245136407694660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4427538608110635294.post-75163799768453073732007-07-27T18:30:00.000-05:002007-07-27T18:30:00.000-05:00I got a 'run along, little subbie, and get your do...<I>I got a 'run along, little subbie, and get your dom to talk to me' comment recently.</I><BR/><BR/>Grrrargh! People who can't tell the difference between "dom" and "asshole" are one of my biggest pet peeves. It's dangerous as well as annoying. Glad you filtered that one out early. <BR/><BR/>Hope you find some of what you're looking for in those books.P. Burkehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18185865202737426756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4427538608110635294.post-53541638503186508082007-07-27T15:19:00.000-05:002007-07-27T15:19:00.000-05:00I find that I'm both drawn toward Buddhism because...I find that I'm both drawn toward Buddhism because of the idea that everything, including myself, is in a constant flux, and completely terrified that there really isn't any actual eternal core of identity belonging to me. And then, there's the fact that my understanding of Buddhism is still very limited. <BR/><BR/>And that's a whole separate issue from trying to put words to the sense of self I have. I'm very comfortable describing myself as my father's child, for instance. I'm no longer comfortable with the word daughter because of the connotations attached to it. Some of the connotations of son fit well -- I feel an intense pressure both internal and external to fill my father's shoes -- but that doesn't exactly work either.WordKhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13155725542014595709noreply@blogger.com